Anxiety Goals

Leavin’ On A Jet Plane: Part 1.5

The Goal: Fly across the country by myself

The Why: Confront my anxiety of being in new places without others to fall back on for support 

Well friends, the time has come – it’s TRIP DAY!

Besides being a bit sleep-deprived, I’m actually doing pretty well as I sit and wait for my boarding time. I made sure to pack as early as I could yesterday to avoid last-minute panicking and other than forgetting extra hair ties (which are always in abundance when you DON’T need them, amiright?) I think I’ve got everything taken care of. Unlike many people, the actual flight doesn’t bother me at all – it’s the logistics of knowing what to do and when. As I mentioned in the first trip post, a lot of my social anxiety is rooted in being worried I’ll do something “wrong”, “awkward”, “embarrassing”, or make it obvious that I’m a newbie. So as expected, I made some goofs going through the security line, but you know what? So did almost everyone else around me! (I’m looking at you, guy trying to fly with full sized bottles of olive oil – I get it, but read the rules, man!)

Something I’m hoping to gain from the trip is a better ability to let go of worrying so much about making a fool of myself, or at least raising the bar for what that constitutes. Nobody there knows me at all, so why worry? Maybe I’ll be “that girl who face planted from tripping on her own feet”, but at least that’ll be a fun story for people to tell!

I will be trying to stay off my phone as much as I can once I get to California, but will definitely take lots of pictures that I’ll share in my next post. In the meantime, I’ll be doing a lot of waiting around and trying to snag a nap when I can – wish me luck!

-Amanda

P.S. Special shoutout to Brian for driving me to the airport at 3:30 am. He really is a keeper.

2 thoughts on “Leavin’ On A Jet Plane: Part 1.5

  1. Well I say good for you…you noticed others are not perfect…they goofed in the security line, too (ha I almost choked on my coffee..full sized bottles of olive oil…as if someone in security wouldn’t notice that!!!). I am so proud of you, Amanda. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy….you are correct these people don’t know you…but you will be meeting new people (and when they see that bright smile you so easily flash, they will be drawn to you), you will be experiencing new things, places. things you maybe never thought you would do. And in these steps you are taking, I believe we will see what I have always saw in you…a confident, happy go lucky, smart (and loving) woman. Sorry if I am preaching. (And Brian does appear to be a keeper!!!) Love, Gerry

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    1. Amanda, I am very proud of you for sticking to your plan and flying across the country by yourself! I knew you could do it! You just don’t give yourself credit that you are a very smart, strong woman! You had a great time and saw another part of the country! (minus seeing too much of Atlanta’s airport)! I made be your mother but your dear friend Gerry also sees the great lady you are! ❤️

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